I met with Xinxin around June to collaborate for photoshoot at the fabulously kitsch Kew Motor Inn. Little did I know, this would be a known as one of the most cathartic shoots I have done.
We used the setting to our advantage to capture some really dreamy and dark images.
In the beginning of the shoot, you see me dressed in shiny metallic ensembles to emulate the aftermath of a long night. Still somewhat glamourous, the night is still young, who knows what can happen after 2:00am on a Thursday night.
The theme of the shoot changed when I was asked to bring more emotion to the scene and do less fashion poses. That’s when things changed.
Xinxin played soundtrack to Twin Peaks to set the scene. I listened to it and began to feel lethargic and uneasy. Its funny how music, despite the genre, can automatically bring out an emotion that you’re not always familiar with. I was caught the moment of feeling extremely depressed and lonely. In that moment, I realized that Modeling could be associated with Acting as well.
I pulled a lot of inspiration from a vulnerable period in my life and its haunting to go back to that dark place again. It is refreshing to know that you can get away from a chaotic experience in your life through affirmation and self -love. However a traumatic moment can resurface in your memory and make you feel imprisoned with the dark past you tried to hard to leave behind.
Photography By Xinxin Zhang